Trust

 

R.I.P.

I am just now posting this, but I wrote this last Friday…

So today I am trying to prepare myself for what’s ahead. My Great-Aunt’s funeral. My family is still trying to get a a grip on this sad event. As mature individuals, we are always aware that death is inevitable. But we are not always aware of its possibility. That is until we are faced with it.

Losing people you love causes grief. My grief is a mixture of guilt, sadness, and anger.

I am guilty for all if the things I did not do and all of the time I took for granted. We put off so many things for the next day, week, or specific  time, but death doesn’t adjust to our schedules.

I am sad because if our loss. I’m sad that a member of our family is gone from this Earth forever. And yes, I know that I could tell myself that she is gone to a better place, but the problem with that is, I don’t know that place! I’ve never been there. I believe in Heaven, but I’m still here on Earth and will never share a conversation or a meal with her again.

I’m angry because I didn’t do all if the things I should have done. All of the warning signs were there, and I still chose NOT to visit or call, and kept saying I would do it later.

I can beat myself up all day, and it still won’t change anything! I’m even more angry at nature itself. I can’t understand death, and neither do I want to. I don’t think I will ever understand or accept the fact that the people I love will not always be here, and that is what upsets me more than anything.

This is why the present moment is so important.

How are you using your present?

 

A New Perspective of Decision-Making

So, I heard someone say that when we make decisions based on survival or security that we are functioning at a level beneath human functioning.  THIS IS REAL! I immediately felt like that was the whole truth and nothing but the truth.  Making choices based on security and survival sounds something like this:

I want to be a ___________, but I need something that will pay the bills.

This is just one of many examples, because people make security-based choices all the time in other aspects of their life.  No wonder so many people are depressed! People are denying their humanity.  Being human gives us the natural right to have preference and seek for that which enhances our soul.If we are only living off of survival and security, we will never transcend.  It’s not living; it’s surviving.

But How Do you Know if you are doing this?

What are you happy with and unhappy with in your life right now? How did you get here? The cause is buried somewhere in your answer.

Just be honest with yourself.  You deserve to live a fulfilling life!